Damn

 Damn I’m kinda lonely rn it kinda sucks I wish it’d just all be over and I can be happy again and things will move smoothly I really hate this 😭😭😭😭 like I know what I need and want and I just wanna be understood but holy shit I don’t get that and oh my god 😭😭😭😭 this sucks so much you don’t know till you live it and I lowkey feel like wood rotting right now don’t even get me started im so done 

How tf people survive how tf do lonely ppl survive like holy fuck friends are so much more complicated than I thought and it’s not like I can just YouTube myself speaking or like whatever: it sucks bro like why is it so hard

I’m actually so done rn like holy fuck it’s really hard and I just wish it’d be over real fast and I can actually like. Not feel this way. My environment is not feeding what I want and not stretching the way I want it and it really does hurt because I just don’t wanna shrink myself to fit it goddamn. 

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